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Heaven’s End
A Gothic Drama

Alex Phillips, an aspiring composer, struggles to survive as a waiter during the late 1980’s punk era in London. At thirty-seven, he is the last surviving member of his family. He discovers the diary of his great-grandaunt Genevieve Fortier hidden in an antique writing desk, and becomes enmeshed in her story, and discovers what her life was like in 1872.

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All lyrics and music composed, arranged, and produced by Perry Montauredes.
Solo violin and viola performed by Joseph Kauffman.
All other instruments by Perry Montauredes.

1. Kingdom of Heaven
Vocals by Perry Montauredes and Tara Grey

Lyrics

Choir
Come to me my angel come to me my child
Yours is the Kingdom, Kingdom of Heaven
Yours is the Kingdom of the Lord

Come to me my angel come to me my child
Yours is the Kingdom, Kingdom of Heaven
Yours is the Kingdom of the Lord

Father Gerard
I am the resurrection and the life
He that exercises faith in Me
Even though he dies will come to life
And everyone that is living and
Exercises faith in me will never die
As it was in the beginning it is now
And will be forever

Choir
We shall live forever
Eternal life in Heaven
Live for eternity
Fly to the land of angels
Salvation there for all who seek
Salvation…

2. Light of the World
Vocals by Tara Grey

Lyrics

How we find ourselves in Heaven
Far, far from this world
Heavenly Kingdom
Revealed as mysteries unfurl

Life everlasting
The truth is known
When we find ourselves in Heaven
With The Light of the world

Life everlasting
The Truth is known
When we find ourselves in Heaven
Far, far from this world

3. Fallen From Grace
Vocals by Perry Montauredes

Lyrics

When all was so right in my world
On one ill fated night of violence
I lost something that can’t be restored
When I die this mortal soul has fallen from grace

There once was a time of a romance
And the joy of a love that was mine
My one true love my sweet destiny
Embraced in a kiss so divine

I still miss you I love you
I never will see you again
And I’m hating the one
Who has locked you away in Heaven
How dare anyone destroy this love so divine
In hundreds of lifetimes
I never could find
Anyone to compare with you

Now I find I’ve become like the one I have hated
Despising myself
This mortal soul has fallen from grace
Fallen from grace

4. Dream Away a Life
Vocals by Sherrell Honore

Lyrics

I close my eyes to find my way back to you
while wondering I lie and dream away a life I knew
to sleep to find this other magic place in time
tomorrow will I wake alone again my thoughts consumed

dark desires haunting me, my world’s on fire insanity
I question everything I once knew as reality

walk in the moonlight with you by my side
I could stay here forever, whispers, travel on the winds of
time with our secrets, disappear
as our world fades away with the light of day

now lost behind illusions of a different kind
each morning breaks this spell two worlds I know so well collide
a dream so real drowning in memories I feel
alone again please tell me where do you hide

wondering what would you say, standing here with me today
I can not wait for sleep to take me to our dream

walk in the moonlight with you by my side
I could stay here forever, whispers, travel on the winds of
time with our secrets, disappear
as our world fades away with the light of day

His love, His joy never ends
a leap of faith, will carry me, will carry, carry you forever
in Him we see, through Him we find, with Him we know
help me understand this rhyme, through Your love divine

I close my eyes to find my way back to you
while wondering I lie and dream away a life I knew

5. Sisters’ Fun

6. Fleurs Pour Marie
Vocals by Perry Montauredes and Tara Grey

Lyrics

Father Gerard
Oh I remember the first time I saw your face
as children how we laughed and played
you are the only one I have loved to this day
now I have lost you once again

Ghost of Marie
And if you could hear me now
you would know that I have loved you
and wanted to be yours for all this time
why did you not come to me
how I longed to hear the words you say
this mystery revealed
but far too late

Father Gerard
Spring flowers now are gone with the joy that they bring
leaving emptiness and pain
the snow has fallen and has covered everything
only memories remain

Ghost of Marie
And if you could hear me now
you would know that I have loved you
and wanted to be yours for all this time
why did you not come to me
how I longed to hear the words you say
this mystery revealed
but far too late
far too late

7. In My Life
Vocals by Perry Montauredes

Lyrics

in my life, I struggle with the longings
that are of my kind
I can’t give in to these passions to take one life
and yet within this prison
my soul’s confined
and I’m so alone

and now in love
will I ever know her gentle touch
how can I
I need to let her know just what I am

in my life, one hundred thousand nights
have passed since I’ve seen the dawn
but oh in my dreams
I see a sun rise high
and a life
where hope illuminates the day

in my life, I speak to the northern lights
and cast my prayers beyond the stars
but oh in my fears
I live a shadowed life
can there be no escape
from this eternal night

8. Double Embrace

9. Sans Coeur
Vocals by Sherrell Honore

Lyrics

Waiting for the silent voice of love
My innocence you took it all
What was I thinking of
The more I’d love the more you’d take
Your imposition my mistake
Empty words and promises
Lies of love and shattered glass

Pieces of my heart
Break away in waves

Lying here on my darkest night
The sand runs out I’m losing all
With the will to fight
There’s no one here to take my hand
To comfort me or understand
Empty words and promises
Lies of love and shattered glass

Pieces of my heart

10. The Spider Dance
Vocals by Perry Montauredes and Sherrell Honore

Lyrics

Francois
You disgust me, your lascivious ways
Their deaths on your hands, you have their blood on your face

Rebekka
Now wait a minute, I don’t force them
It’s the price they pay, for they come to me thinking they’ll have their way with me

Devon
Do you think you’re better, living off the blood of animals
Such a pity not much taste

Devon & Rebekka
To embrace
Do you think you’re better living off the blood of animals

Devon
Well at least we don’t deny what we are
Though some of us here sometimes do go too far

Francois
Well I will never drink of human blood

Devon
Now don’t be so sure

Rebekka
That sweet taste

Devon
There’s nothing as pure

Devon & Rebekka
To a true connoisseur, do you think you’re better, living off the blood

Rebekka (with disgust)
Of animals

Devon
You’ll never know your power

 

11. Promises of Heaven
Vocals by Perry Montauredes

Lyrics

I’ve been afraid, alone in the darkness
Drowning in the land of oblivion
For another’s crime on my soul has this devil won
Forced to hide from the sun will I ever see
Promises of Heaven are they meant for me

When will this horror ever end for me
Am I damned to remain for eternity

God save me I’m a man without strength
In the night before you I pray
God please help me am I welcome
Into your grace I’m sure you know
That I still believe

Promises of Heaven are they meant to be
Wait another day wait another year
Am I not understanding the reason that I’m here
Am I falling away from your light
And am I doomed to remain in the night

When will this horror ever end for me
Am I damned to remain for eternity

God save me I’m a man without strength
In the night before you I pray
God please help me am I welcome
Into your grace I’m sure you know
That I still believe, I believe
Promises of Heaven, are they meant for me

12. Nowhere on Earth
Vocals by Perry Montauredes

Lyrics

There is nowhere on earth
for me in my life
is it the coward who goes on
struggling to see
yet another night
for I would give
give this all away
and face my fate
if I believed
that there was a God
and that He
had not forsaken me
my maker cursed Him long ago
as he did me
for all eternity